Back at it...

Christmas is fast approaching. This was josh's time of year. Light, presents, people. This is gonna be a rough patch.

Philippians 3:12-14 (Good News Translation)

12 I do not claim that I have already succeeded or have already become perfect. I keep striving to win the prize for which Christ Jesus has already won me to himself. 13 Of course, my friends, I really do not think that I have already won it; the one thing I do, however, is to forget what is behind me and do my best to reach what is ahead. 14 So I run straight toward the goal in order to win the prize, which is God's call through Christ Jesus to the life above.

This was a perfect Josh day. Any day you would want to ride full bore into the wind, engines screaming, was a Josh day. Warm and sunny. That was him.

Stood in his room for a long time. Found his Ipod. I took it to his garden that he had started a few weeks ago and put it on. Never heard a lot of the music- some rap and light punk stuff. Didn't matter. Couldn't do anything- just having all that together made me have a frigging melt down.

Amazing how cold and lonely the Texas sun can feel.

This sucks.

I love you son.

lost my son

13 year old by a horrible tragedy. Life sucks. Ride on my son. I will love you always.